Here, one more time, some of my favorite pictures of him.
Two year’s ago Canelo had an tumor operation. That was when the vet told us that unfortunately Canelo suffer from mild kidney failure. Since then he was on medication. We had regular check ups. Last in October. The vet let us know the levels were increased. On Friday evening, today four weeks ago, we took him to the vet in the evening. Fearing the worst but, still hoping the vet would be able to help him. It was absolutely devastating to be told the only right thing is to let him go. I cried but, was able to keep it under some control. I held him in my arms and talked to him until the vet told me it was over. I kissed him and hugged him and told him good bye and that I love him. We paid and went to the car. That’s when I couldn’t help myself anymore. I cried all the way home, all evening and the next day too. I am heartbroken and still cry many, many times a day. I think of him all the time. Good thing is I had the courage to stay with him till the end. Only when our first cat left us I didn’t have the strength to stay with her which I have regretted ever after. After that I have stayed with each and everyone. It took me five days before I was ready to go out for daily walks without my Canelo.
Two weeks ago I had a dream. I dreamed that my husband and I were together in a shop. I saw a dog on the floor. He lifted his head and looked at me, straight into my eyes. It was Canelo. I was overwhelmingly happy. We looked at each other for a while. I received so much love and warmth from his beautiful eyes. Then, I got a message from him, telling me “I’m OK”. He put his head back onto the floor. At that moment I woke up. It was morning. I had the most wonderful, warm, relaxed feeling which lasted for some days. The moment still is very vivid on my mind.
What a wonderful time it has been to have him in our lives for almost twelve years. We took him with us everywhere, all the time. We made many road trips, both abroad and here. He warmly welcomed our Jacky cat one and a half year ago. Just as had Quam and Quismo welcomed him into the family when he was a baby. Canelo was always so happy, friendly, gentle and playful. What he loved most of all was playing with tennis balls. He loved to swim in the lake. We loved the long daily walks. The walks for the last times were shorter but we still enjoyed the walks down to the lake. He always patiently waited while I took photos.
I am so happy and thankful for the two more years we got to have him after the operation and after he was diagnosed the kidney failure. I want to think he now is with his cat brothers, Quam and Quismo. Canelo, we all miss you so, so much.