For weeks it was almost too hard for me to go out for daily walks. It felt meaningless to go out without my dear Canelo. I’m glad I’m now back on track and walking every day. Sometimes it kind of feels he is there with me. Long or short walks, we always combined them with the lake. I love, specially in the summer, how the view changes all the time. Yesterday’s reflections looked nice. Two other persons also took pictures of them.
This is the second time I have drawn a wolf. First one was seven years ago. My goodness, time flies ! I need to draw, draw, draw to get better.
Spring at it’s best. There is no snow anymore. It’s amazing how fast things happen now. Here’s another spring flower. The wood anemone. These are the first ones in bloom. Soon there will be ‘zillions’ of them 🙂
These make the spring 🙂
Yesterday on the way to the supermarket my husband said did you see the ponies. No, make a u-turn. There on the football/sports field was a pony and a donkey. Both so very cute. They belong to a circus that was about to leave. Of course I took a couple of photos.
European Robin. Also called Robin redbreast or just Robin. They are back after spending the winter in the southern Europa. I saw a flock of about 8-10 of them. When I came they all flew away. I slowly took my camera from the bag and waited. After about 10 minutes the first one came back. He sat on a branch and stared at me for a good while. Then flew to the next branch, which was more close to me, and sat there for a while. Then also the others came back. They all began to look for something to eat. The first brave one moved even one more step closer to me. Now I was able to take some photos. I still waited for him to, perhaps, come a couple of more meters closer. But he didn’t. I wish I had a 600 mm lens but, my 300 has to do. Also I wish I had had the tripod but, I quite often am too lazy to take it with me.
Here, one more time, some of my favorite pictures of him.
Two year’s ago Canelo had an tumor operation. That was when the vet told us that unfortunately Canelo suffer from mild kidney failure. Since then he was on medication. We had regular check ups. Last in October. The vet let us know the levels were increased. On Friday evening, today four weeks ago, we took him to the vet in the evening. Fearing the worst but, still hoping the vet would be able to help him. It was absolutely devastating to be told the only right thing is to let him go. I cried but, was able to keep it under some control. I held him in my arms and talked to him until the vet told me it was over. I kissed him and hugged him and told him good bye and that I love him. We paid and went to the car. That’s when I couldn’t help myself anymore. I cried all the way home, all evening and the next day too. I am heartbroken and still cry many, many times a day. I think of him all the time. Good thing is I had the courage to stay with him till the end. Only when our first cat left us I didn’t have the strength to stay with her which I have regretted ever after. After that I have stayed with each and everyone. It took me five days before I was ready to go out for daily walks without my Canelo.
Two weeks ago I had a dream. I dreamed that my husband and I were together in a shop. I saw a dog on the floor. He lifted his head and looked at me, straight into my eyes. It was Canelo. I was overwhelmingly happy. We looked at each other for a while. I received so much love and warmth from his beautiful eyes. Then, I got a message from him, telling me “I’m OK”. He put his head back onto the floor. At that moment I woke up. It was morning. I had the most wonderful, warm, relaxed feeling which lasted for some days. The moment still is very vivid on my mind.
What a wonderful time it has been to have him in our lives for almost twelve years. We took him with us everywhere, all the time. We made many road trips, both abroad and here. He warmly welcomed our Jacky cat one and a half year ago. Just as had Quam and Quismo welcomed him into the family when he was a baby. Canelo was always so happy, friendly, gentle and playful. What he loved most of all was playing with tennis balls. He loved to swim in the lake. We loved the long daily walks. The walks for the last times were shorter but we still enjoyed the walks down to the lake. He always patiently waited while I took photos.
I am so happy and thankful for the two more years we got to have him after the operation and after he was diagnosed the kidney failure. I want to think he now is with his cat brothers, Quam and Quismo. Canelo, we all miss you so, so much.